Well, a whole week's gone by and I have to say, that it's a whole bunch of other things that are bothering me this week.....hope you don't mind me sharing my rant!
Many of you will already know, especially if you follow me on twitter, that my other half managed to get himself 3 weeks work before christmas which ended up putting us in a major financial hole when we were told that we couldn't claim tax credits. We are still on the road to recovery and each day is a major uphill struggle.
Being on the dole again, we are lucky that this just about covers the bills. Only trouble is, we live day to day shopping wise as there's not much left after the bills. Many days my partner and myself do without anything, just to make sure my kids are fed....and they always are, even if it's only beans on toast! I'm now beginning to think that maybe that's why my skin etc is in such poor condition, hence adding to my insecurities...it's a vicious circle!
Just when a small light becomes visible at the end of this long, winding tunnel, other financial costs which I hadn't even taken into consideration have appeared. Not only is my sister getting married in June (we don't own any decent clothes or shoes, so a whole unaffordable new wardrobe for 4 is needed), my daughter also has her end of school prom in June (new gown needed there and she has her heart set on arriving in a limo like her mates), but now it seems that the course she wants to do after year 11 is going to cost us just under £500!!!
I am absolutely at my wits end and feel like hibernating and hoping it will all just go away. If I can't afford to eat, how on earth am I going to manage evcerything else??
I have to say, I seem to spend most days entering comps now...anything's a help, even something as simple as shampoo or bubble bath!
No doubt the answer's out there somewhere....I just have to search hard!
Okay, that's my waffle over for another week! Hopefully by next weeks' update, a miracle will have occurred....I can dream, can't I! lol
As always, please feel free to leave any comments, good or bad I read them all!
Elaine x
Wednesday, 9 February 2011
Monday, 7 February 2011
C'mon, do your bit......
Ever been interested in learning basic millinery techniques and making your own cocktail hat whilst doing your bit for charity? Well that's what's on offer from the fabulous Amour Girls!
Vintage Amours will be holding a workshop on 31st March at The Railway on Clapham High Street between 12pm and 5pm. Places are limited so advance booking is essential and tickets cost just £38, which includes the base for your cocktail hat along with other materials, and for good measure, they've thrown in a cocktail too!! The evening has been arranged to help raise money for Cancer Research UK which is such a worthy charity and in need of all the funding they can get.
Experienced Amour Girl Charlotte will be there to help you with the making of your hat so an enjoyable night to be had by all.
For more information and to book your place, visit The Amour Girls ......easy peasy!! Or if you prefer, you can get in touch with them on twitter and facebook where i'm sure they'll be happy to answer any questions you may have.
Vintage Amours will be holding a workshop on 31st March at The Railway on Clapham High Street between 12pm and 5pm. Places are limited so advance booking is essential and tickets cost just £38, which includes the base for your cocktail hat along with other materials, and for good measure, they've thrown in a cocktail too!! The evening has been arranged to help raise money for Cancer Research UK which is such a worthy charity and in need of all the funding they can get.
Experienced Amour Girl Charlotte will be there to help you with the making of your hat so an enjoyable night to be had by all.
For more information and to book your place, visit The Amour Girls ......easy peasy!! Or if you prefer, you can get in touch with them on twitter and facebook where i'm sure they'll be happy to answer any questions you may have.
Thursday, 3 February 2011
Sassys Self Therapy...
Well, I know i'm a day late with this too but I kind of bottled it yesterday....sorry!!
I'll fill you in on a little background about me so you get a better understanding of where i'm coming from and why I feel the way I do.
As some of you may already know, my parents divorced when I was 2 and I lived with my mam, but visited my dad on weekends. I have always been blamed by my mam for the breakup of their marriage....even today!
Since I appeared to be the one to blame, my mam made my life a misery. Don't get me wrong, there were good times when I had a laugh and giggle with her and I always had material things, but she was a modern day equivalent of Jekyll and Hyde. The slightest thing could spark her off like leaving a door open or heaven forbid, disagreeing with her! This made life pretty difficult for me and I learnt from a young age how to tread on eggshells. Unfortunately, I still tread on eggshells with everyone rather than say how I really feel.....including my kids and partner.
Anyone who knows me, will say i'm confident, outgoing, sociable, friendly and considerate.......but they don't REALLY know me!
For as long as I can remember, i've been told i'm useless, worthless, stupid, disappointing, ugly and too skinny....which is probably why I find it so hard to believe otherwise.
My other half constantly tells me i'm gorgeous and he loves me just as much as he did when we first met 17 years ago, but I always feel he's only telling me what he 'thinks' I want to hear, rather than the truth....after all, who would want someone like me???
I appreciate that many men and women feel exactly like I do, it all depends on how each individual chooses to deal with it.....and that's where i'm struggling.
I avoid mirrors as much as possible as I hate the way I look, this is why you'll never see a picture of myself on here...especially close up! Don't get me wrong, I have tried. I've taken pics after applying creams/foundations etc, ready to blog about, but can never quite bring myself to post them! My eyes are about as much as you're getting (for now at least) and I even shudder at those.
I looked at my body a few weeks ago and cried for hours......why can't I just be happy with me??
For some reason, I can't overlook everything my mam drummed into me whilst growing up and I feel that it's ruining my life now! My relationship is hard work....mainly on my partners side, as he's always having to reassure me, and that's not how I want things to be. I find it really difficult to make decisions too which causes problems. I'm so used to having options and choosing the 'wrong' one that i'd rather pass any decision making on to someone else....usually my partner!
Blimey, I must be pretty hard to live with after reading back through this but he's hung around for 17 years so I guess alot of it's in my head.
I'm now taking one day at a time and writing weekly updates on here.....hopefully it will help! I also hope that it may help anyone else stuck in similar circumstances to know that they're not alone.
Please feel free to leave any comments/advice/criticism/questions I appreciate others' opinions too. Well, i'll leave it at that for now, but i'll be back next week with a new update and hopefully a smile. xx
I'll fill you in on a little background about me so you get a better understanding of where i'm coming from and why I feel the way I do.
As some of you may already know, my parents divorced when I was 2 and I lived with my mam, but visited my dad on weekends. I have always been blamed by my mam for the breakup of their marriage....even today!
Since I appeared to be the one to blame, my mam made my life a misery. Don't get me wrong, there were good times when I had a laugh and giggle with her and I always had material things, but she was a modern day equivalent of Jekyll and Hyde. The slightest thing could spark her off like leaving a door open or heaven forbid, disagreeing with her! This made life pretty difficult for me and I learnt from a young age how to tread on eggshells. Unfortunately, I still tread on eggshells with everyone rather than say how I really feel.....including my kids and partner.
Anyone who knows me, will say i'm confident, outgoing, sociable, friendly and considerate.......but they don't REALLY know me!
For as long as I can remember, i've been told i'm useless, worthless, stupid, disappointing, ugly and too skinny....which is probably why I find it so hard to believe otherwise.
My other half constantly tells me i'm gorgeous and he loves me just as much as he did when we first met 17 years ago, but I always feel he's only telling me what he 'thinks' I want to hear, rather than the truth....after all, who would want someone like me???
I appreciate that many men and women feel exactly like I do, it all depends on how each individual chooses to deal with it.....and that's where i'm struggling.
I avoid mirrors as much as possible as I hate the way I look, this is why you'll never see a picture of myself on here...especially close up! Don't get me wrong, I have tried. I've taken pics after applying creams/foundations etc, ready to blog about, but can never quite bring myself to post them! My eyes are about as much as you're getting (for now at least) and I even shudder at those.
I looked at my body a few weeks ago and cried for hours......why can't I just be happy with me??
For some reason, I can't overlook everything my mam drummed into me whilst growing up and I feel that it's ruining my life now! My relationship is hard work....mainly on my partners side, as he's always having to reassure me, and that's not how I want things to be. I find it really difficult to make decisions too which causes problems. I'm so used to having options and choosing the 'wrong' one that i'd rather pass any decision making on to someone else....usually my partner!
Blimey, I must be pretty hard to live with after reading back through this but he's hung around for 17 years so I guess alot of it's in my head.
I'm now taking one day at a time and writing weekly updates on here.....hopefully it will help! I also hope that it may help anyone else stuck in similar circumstances to know that they're not alone.
Please feel free to leave any comments/advice/criticism/questions I appreciate others' opinions too. Well, i'll leave it at that for now, but i'll be back next week with a new update and hopefully a smile. xx
Tuesday, 1 February 2011
Better Late than Never....
Firstly, I must apologize for the extreme lack of updates.......my last being in November!! Don't worry, i've given myself a slap on the wrist and will try my hardest to update regularly.
Now that's out of the way, Happy New Year to you all!! Let's hope it's a great year for us all.
Over the past few months, alot of the feelings I had trouble dealing with in my younger days have reared their ugly heads. For this reason, i've decided to use my blog as a bit of a release...call it Sassy's Therapy if you like! I hope that by writing about how I feel and trying to deal with it, it may help me move on and live a happy, normal life without needing constant reassurance that i'm worth something.
Please feel free to add any suggestions, opinions or even your own experiences on any of the updates......I find it helps to know you're not alone!
Don't worry, I won't abandon my reviews! I have a few coming soon including the new Rimmel foundation that claims to last 25 hours......does it really do as it says?? Watch this space to find out! I also have mascara reviews, bath fizz reviews and a few others so hang tight!!
Thanks to my subscribers for being so patient and sticking with me, I appreciate you all. xx
Now that's out of the way, Happy New Year to you all!! Let's hope it's a great year for us all.
Over the past few months, alot of the feelings I had trouble dealing with in my younger days have reared their ugly heads. For this reason, i've decided to use my blog as a bit of a release...call it Sassy's Therapy if you like! I hope that by writing about how I feel and trying to deal with it, it may help me move on and live a happy, normal life without needing constant reassurance that i'm worth something.
Please feel free to add any suggestions, opinions or even your own experiences on any of the updates......I find it helps to know you're not alone!
Don't worry, I won't abandon my reviews! I have a few coming soon including the new Rimmel foundation that claims to last 25 hours......does it really do as it says?? Watch this space to find out! I also have mascara reviews, bath fizz reviews and a few others so hang tight!!
Thanks to my subscribers for being so patient and sticking with me, I appreciate you all. xx
Friday, 5 November 2010
And the winners are......
Thankyou so much for the entries to my comp....they've certainly given me a few giggles along the way! Now it's time to announce the winners......
In 3rd place and winner of the Fantastic Mr Fox Odd Socks is GRAPEVINE who sent me her entry privately via twitter since it was a little risque....but here it is:
There was a criminal up in court. The judge said, "Do you admit to attacking this woman?" Criminal "Cough, cough, splutter,.. yes m'lud."
Judge "And than you raped her and stole her handbag?" Criminal "Cough, cough, splutter.......yes m'lud"
Judge "Look here young man, I can't understand a word you're saying with all that couging. Why don't you go and suck a Fisherman's Friend?" Criminal "I'm in enough bloody trouble as it is, m'lud."
In 2nd place and winner of the Fantastic Mr Fox T-shirt is ALI991 with this joke:
How can you shorten a bed?
Don't sleep long in it!
And in 1st place, winner of the Fantastic Mr Fox Pyjamas is.......... MISSIELIZZIE with this joke:
What's the difference between a dog and a fox?
8 pints of Stella.
The winners were chosen by myself, my other half and a couple of friends to keep everything fair. Many thanks for entering and Congratulations to the winners. I believe you are all on twitter so if you could DM me your addresses, i'll get your goodies posted out to you.
In 3rd place and winner of the Fantastic Mr Fox Odd Socks is GRAPEVINE who sent me her entry privately via twitter since it was a little risque....but here it is:
There was a criminal up in court. The judge said, "Do you admit to attacking this woman?" Criminal "Cough, cough, splutter,.. yes m'lud."
Judge "And than you raped her and stole her handbag?" Criminal "Cough, cough, splutter.......yes m'lud"
Judge "Look here young man, I can't understand a word you're saying with all that couging. Why don't you go and suck a Fisherman's Friend?" Criminal "I'm in enough bloody trouble as it is, m'lud."
In 2nd place and winner of the Fantastic Mr Fox T-shirt is ALI991 with this joke:
How can you shorten a bed?
Don't sleep long in it!
And in 1st place, winner of the Fantastic Mr Fox Pyjamas is.......... MISSIELIZZIE with this joke:
What's the difference between a dog and a fox?
8 pints of Stella.
The winners were chosen by myself, my other half and a couple of friends to keep everything fair. Many thanks for entering and Congratulations to the winners. I believe you are all on twitter so if you could DM me your addresses, i'll get your goodies posted out to you.
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